ʟᴀᴛᴇꜱᴛ ᴊᴏᴜʀɴᴀʟ ᴇɴᴛʀʏ
3.8.2026
i wake up on my birthday to my friends telling me happy birthday via text. my partner calls me and sings me happy birthday, tells me they'll pick me up at four after my work. after work they arrive and take me to a surprise picnic. i feel nervous but follow them. we arrive at a dock and they tell me to turn around while they set up the picnic. i look out into the sea while i hear things behind me being moved around. when they tell me i can look, i turn around. they have baked a pie and made us delicious looking sandwiches. i see olives, cherries and my favourite wine! they even take out some soup for us that they must have cooked recently, because it's still warm. i cannot believe my eyes! we eat and talk and they hand me a package. i open it carefully. inside is a keychain, a letter and a customised doll of me and my cat. i almost start crying when i read the letter. i try to hold it in my hands firmly so it doesn't fly away with the wind. i tell them this is the best gift i've ever recieved.
29.- 30.07.2026
29.07. after work headed to forest with father to hunt for mushrooms. father taught me to navigate with a compass and by using the trees. at one point i fell with a mushroom bag and a knife. luckily i didn't sprain anything, stab myself or fall on the mushrooms. the moss was a soft place to land on. we stop by some rocks to drink coffee and eat tomatoes. father tells me about his religious experiences and we try to identify mushrooms we have gathered using a book. at some point father tells me it's time to head home and we walk to the bus stop together. we say goodbye and i head home. i can feel the amount of walking in my legs. i'm tired beyond belief. i get home. mum calls me and i tell her i'm too tired to talk and need to prep the mushrooms. i wash, dry, boil and fry the mushrooms, freeze some and prepare some for dinner. my partner calls me saying they miss me and they come over.
30.7. waking up is hard. my legs hurt but i force myself up. i brew coffee for two. i notice the oat milk i bought has D3. have to email them and ask if it's vegan. workday is sluggish. i decide to end my day earlier than expected, since i got everything done. i listen to noize mc and link some of his music to a friend who i think might like it. i meet my friend outside the cinema. we go in and they tell me they've never been in a cinema in finland. i choose the seats while making a stupid joke about six seven and the cashier doesn't laugh. we head to our favourite vegan restaurant. i order a drink and some summer rolls. the sun is burning hot but the food and drink is nice and refreshing. we head to the cinema and my friend says they like the seats. during the movie we whisper comments to each other and quietly snort at things we find funny. after the movie we go fetch their backpack from the office and walk together to the train station. when we part we do a bro hug, they laugh and it makes me laugh as well.
26.07.2026
woke up to the sound of rain. i made breakfast and watched twin peaks. i put up posters and card on my wall and fixed my washing machine. while i was washing laundry i started craving something sweet, so i decided to bake a red currant pie. it turned out really good. then my partner called me asking if they could come over bc they wanted to watch twin peaks and they got to taste the pie as well.
16.07.2026
i went to a drag show with my partner and some friends. i was in drag for the first time in public, i don't think i will be doing it again. i watched and finished angels in america.
09.07.2026
i wake up, call mother i slept in and tell her i will be late for our meet up. when i arrive we eat together, have cherries and drink coffee. she shows me pictures from her travels to europe. we talk about art, beauty and religion. i tell her i truly believe living surrounded by beauty will heal you. she says humans can never reach the beauty that has been given to us, which is nature. i tell her it depends if one sees humans as part of nature. humans are beautiful to me. we visit a museum and mother's atelier, which is in the same building, she shows me what she is working on. we head to the city and order drinks at a terrace. the band is playing an intoxicating mixture of 70s and 90s music. i note how beautiful the lead guitarists silver studded belt and bracelets look against his all black attire. after the gig i head home.
07.07.2026
it was raining when i woke up. i text friend who i'm planning to meet up with this evening. i don't leave my house until three. i grab a coffee on the way to the city. i'm feeling sluggish even after two coffee cups. we meet up at a burger joint, my friend gives me snacks from russia and tells me to return the packages to them, 'it's for vegan russian prisoner project'. we go to the top floor terrace, which makes my skin crawl. it's super posh and there seems to be etiquettes i don't know about. i brush it off and sit at a table with my friend but we're told the table is reserved, actually all the fancy tables are reserved. i apologise and inguire if we can go sit at the terrace outside. they say it's raining but yes. i order a coffee. it's raining indeed but we find a place with cover. we discuss, it's nice to catch up. after browsing through some stores we decide to head to community kitchen. there we make ourselves some food and show each other russian/finnish clips. we take some things to the free shop and decide to head home. when i get home i'm tired beyond repair. i drink a cup of fresh mint tea and head to bed.
06.07.2026
super fast entry, i just wanted to show you guys things i got from the flea market today for my drag. ignore the candles, they were just in my bag when i got things out.
i got: a lace chocker, diamond chocker, slippers, two dresses and a beautiful magenta scarf with golden detailing. i also bought myself a new black eyeliner and a white eyeliner as well.my partner found for me a stylish shirt with a front i've never seen before.
my friend requested some help with decorating their home, so we went to a big flea market yesterday as well. we got them loads of things and i found myself beautiful slippers as well as a wooden basket for my art supplies. i fell in love with this bed, and i will mourn every day that i didn't buy it...
04.07.2026
i woke up slowly, brewed coffee and headed out on a run. suddenly i heard thunder and decided to keep the run brief. on my way to check the public laundry room, i found two bottles of vegan laundry washing liquid from the shared exchange shelf. i found no way to book a laundry shift for myself. i cooked some food and worked on errands. i messaged the animal sanctuary if they could host me and my partner next week in exchange for volunteer work but they already had enough helping hands booked for the next few months. it made me really happy to know there were people out there who cared. we decided to visit them just for a day next week instead to meet the animals.
partner came over and we played deltarune together. kira (my cat) joined us and partner began to draw deltarune fanart while i played. the moment was so cozy. after my computer crashed we decided to make rocky road brownies and draw while listening to deltarune soundtrack. we talked about theories regarding the story and partner showed me some memes and their favourite deltarune fanarts. then we watched Morphine by Aleksei Balabanov.
02.07.2026
i had a friend over. we ate cherries and drank ice tea while we played 'no, i'm not human'.
рус: ко мне заглянул друг. Мы ели вишню и пили холодный чай.
01.07.2026
first day of vaciation. went to the beach with friends.
30.06.2026
i just had a conversation in russian! it went like this:
я: Я голоден.
они: как же так?
я:Я не знаю...
29.06.2026
i decorated and cleaned my apartment!
i went and got some raspberries, blueberries and dark chocolate filled with mint.
28.06.2026
today i have just slept. i made some more okroshka and studied russian. my partner came to visit briefly with a dog. ouside is raining and i just finished burning another incense. i browse through public domain images of tiffany glass windows and lambs. i mourn over how among images of happy sheep there are pictures of their dead corpses and body parts. i even saw images of someon mulesing and steining them which made me upset.
27.06.2026
it was pride day and i spent it with friends and my partner. after the parade we decided to hang out with partner and we got ourselves some wastage food, i got mapo tofu! i saw rocky horror picture show for the first time and loved it. it really made me want to do more drag.
26.06.2026
after work i headed to the cathedral and waited for my friend to arrive. we hugged and went inside. afterwards we sat outside on the grass in front of the cathedral and talked.
we headed to a tiny fashion street festival and browsed through cool clothes. i found red adidas shorts for myself. we went to a flea market and a vegan restaurant. it was so nice to hang out like this. we didn't want to part so we went to sit at a terrace and discussed a game we are planning to make. before going to bed i made patch pride flags with partner from fabric pieces.
25.06.2026
after work i visited the post to pick up russian grammar books.
i took them home and went to store to get ukrainian coffee and okroshka ingredients.
after food and coffee i studied a bit and then started coding a shrine for silver CHECK IT OUT!
fuck i love html/css.i also decided this website will be actively hostile to mobile users.
my friend showed me this video essay and i really liked it.
16.06.2026
went to see grandfather. afterwards i visited church to light a candle for grandmother.
рус: Я зажгла свечу в память о своей бабушке.
12.06.2026
woke up and headed to work; updated news articles, continued on appstore images and handed over some video stuff. left work early, bc i had to make it to a ferry by four. at the dock i met my friends and we boarded the ferry, we decided to sit on the deck. we arrived on an island and went to buy snacks. we walked a long while, trying to find two trees we could attach a hammock to but ended up just sitting on the grass. i heard that the biggest size for this hammock brand is called 'mammock', a massive hammock and it made me laugh. i also learned the material is recycled army parachute.
we decided to play a party game and everyone was laughing. then a pheasant came running towards us. we thought it might attack us but it was just curious. we left late, when the sun was going down and the sky was in flames. on the ferry ride home i noticed how beautiful the cathedral looked in the sunset. i told my friend who was interested to go there we could visit together and light vegan candles.
рус: мы путешествовали в suomenlinna остров.
11.06.2026
i had to wake up super early for an appointment, so i was tired the rest of the day. i managed to finish everything i needed to at work. it's nice to notice i've built more confidence to showcase my work at monthly meetings. idk i always struggled with public speaking. after that i headed to meet up with a friend and we went to watch 'backrooms' together. on my way home it started raining, which i thought was atmospheric. i made dinner and tea and drew while soft rain fell outside.
рус: равота была скучснй.вечером
10.06.2026
today i went to see 'it was just an accident' a film by Jafar Panahi with a friend. then i had to hurry to meet my other friends at the swimming pool and we went to swim for maybe an hour. then we went to the store to buy food and we drove to my place, where we removed a wheel from an old bike i had promised to give to a friend so it could fit in her truck. before going to bed we started watching into the spiderverse with partner.
рус: cегодня я ходила в кино с подругой.
07.06.2026
went to a vegan cafe and photography museum with my friends.
рус: я посетила музей фотографии со своими друзьями.
06.06.2026
today was raining the whole day. we decided to cancel garden plans with my partner and go to a few flea markets instead. i found a book about coffee and watercolour painting. then we went to see Hokum. I found some things from the fleamarket:
a book about coffee and watercolours, since i'm trying to get better with watercolours and i love coffee.
old russian fairytale paintings.
01.06.2026
woke up with a headache, still decided to head to office to work. it was worth, i had breakfast and lunch with a coworker at our favourite vegan place.